As most of you know I kind of dropped off of the WoW radar around 5 months ago, without so much as a goodbye or a thankyou which was completely wrong, rude and ignorant on my part, what you wont know is my reason for being the way I was.
This time last year I made the life changing decision to leave a career I was comfortable in, good at and well respected by my peers, subordinates and commanders. My 'masterplan' involved leaving said career to go to College in order to eventually go to University.
While at College I met an amazing young woman and eventually did the unlikely and fell for her. Having spent the better part of a decade keeping people at arms reach I decided I'd open up to her and tell her things about me that no one else,not even family, knew about me.
She knew what I'd sacrificed to have a try at college, including a massive pay cut and that my lifes prospects were riding on my College course. This didn't stop her from manipulating me, using me and eventually telling me by a text message 2 days before my Birthday, 5 days before Xmas and 2 weeks before my exams started that we were done.
Basically I was completely devastated,upset,angry, all that good stuff. I eventually failed my exams as I couldn't concentrate and ended up failing at College leading to 4-5 months of serious depression.
I still feel like shit now but I'm coping. The reason I ignored any attempt to contact me was a result of when I first tried to talk to someone about my depression,that person being my old man, his response was to tell me to 'man up' and to keep everything to myself as I was upsetting the people around me which I did to the point of breaking down at home.
I'm not after any sympathy as like I said, I'm coping. I met some amazing people in WST and feel like shit that I left the way I did. After a 4 month break I'm now starting fresh back on Aggramar hoping that WoW no longer reminds me of the bad times and hopefully I can concentrate on the good times and the future!
Apologies to everyone, especially Mel for the way I acted.